Pish Posh XoXo.....

Hmmm....Ell claimed that one of my post (Interpetasi) was hers...True enough, but that was life is all about....rotating and keep on changing....

Ell....the person that saw u in the crowd(Klu btol ko la) is being a good friend to U....It's quite rare to see a transparent friendship that u can find nowadays without any hidden intention. Make sure that U will always appreciate him, no matter what happens k....

People around me keep on living a very fast pace of life...We had a drama production to be staged on Oct 31 2009 ()Sultan Mahmud Mangkat Dijulang) is my group. Too many things to be done in such a very short period of time. Then 1 more assignment, 1 test and 1 more Listening test that i have to go through with....Allah, please give me the strength to manage all of these....

Going places here and there make me tired, but what can we say...kita hidup muda ni skali jer, so we have to try all of the things that we wanted to do before we are too ashamed to do all that...Among the list would be:

1. Mandi hujan ketika hujan lebat (dulu bogel jer, tapi skrg xblh dah)

2. Tengok TV sampai lebam bijik mata(then mak marah)

3. Bgembira pegi skolah(kuliah....Hmmm....)

4. making friends with all of the people(now we have ego)

5. Eating without thinking our budget(siap boleh menabung lagi dulu....but now???)

6. We are so cute and cuddly(but now i'm cubby...=))

7. and the list goes on......

Things happen in our life, and apreciate all of it k....

Salam....
Going to study my third language....
11.35 pm

Why do we need to clear our minds.....

Hmmm.....i don't know why, but somehow the tension is in the air. Everybody (especially my friends) are having swing of mood no matter what time it was.

For me, i can always tolerate about it as long as it doesnt touch on any sensitive part of me. We live in the same situation, why do we need to enroll in such things???

the burden of boredom are too much nowadays...although that there are bundles of things to be settled at one particular time, but trust me, i am not in the mood of finishing it. WHY??? Well... i cant say much, but it is not easy to do all sort of hings when u miss someone that u love so much.

It has been a couple of weeks since i went back to my hometown, and hopefully nothings come in the middle of this week to interrupt my weekend. And hopefully i can grab a few novels this week.

Adios, i'm off to make my third language video with Su, Ila n milah....

Assalamualaikum....

Sepicing....Sepiring...Sekeping....

Sepicing aku tsandar di ufuk kesedaran
Mhampar erti sebuah penghidupan
Yang sering membawa sejuta pengharapan
Dalam mengejar nilai sepicing keikhlasan
Buat diteman pembawa ketika kerinduan....

Sepiring keikhlasan buatmu sahabat
Yang sudi memberi tak kenal erti penat
Walau kita jauh tak mungkin berjabat
Namun akhirnya kasihku masih utuh erat
Membawa dan mengenal erti kudrat iradat....

Sekeping hati dibawa berlari
Menjunjung kasih penuh bererti
Kepada siapa yang mampu mengerti
Jauh mengenal erti emansipasi
Buat mengenal diri sendiri
Juga menilai erti makna maknawi.....

By
Tuah Cendana
18/10/09 6.20pm.....

Berhembus Angin Malam...

Alhamdulillh...satu hari yg cukup mcabar buat say telah berjaya dilalui.....Cuma malam ini teringin skali sya bkongsi something....

There is a friend of mine who had been facing so many experience in life especially about love...but i had just read in her blog that she had mentioned me more than just a friend to her.....a BROTHER!!!

i was really touched that she said that i had been somehow be a non-blooded brother to her.This is the 2nd time that i had friends who officially called me as a bro...one from my highschool years...

For me, it was a really big momento in life....when she had declared me as a bro to him, than she is a like a sister to me....

Although that i was the last member in the family, but i am very protective when it comes to be as a friend....I can do almost anything when we are in the pure bond of friendship....

Ell....TQ 4 dat title, and i hope nothing will boke the bond that we had been saving for the past 10 years....

Sincerely, I was just trying to be a real friend to u....and no hiden intention for that....I have anak Cik Timah, U, Thew, Jas< Fadh and all others of our friends from SKKP n TMS that i love the most in life....

Sorry that i cant be at ur side for the time that u need me....but i"ll try my best starting from now as we are no longer friends....but brothers instead...

Thank U Allah 4 keep on giving me friends that really care for me....for smile and tears....for good and bads....

They can take me for who i am...Big or small....Fat or thin....stupid or clever....we will fight for victory forever....

And for my KESATRIA friends today....TQ Dear.....TQ my dearie friends....

May Allah bless us all.....

Good night...

Assalamualaikum...

Nukilan sebuah Sahabat...

Interpretasi sebuah perasaan

Ops..perasaan ni sesuatu yang susah sangat kita nak ucapkan..n,I do remember ape yg az cakap to me tonite n last nite.as wat az saying to me~appreciate what u have today astonite might be ur last sleep forever~ n ~hiding from reality is something that you will be suffering the most in the future~

Dan az selalu membuatkan aku rasa sedang ber `sms ` dgn seorg Shakespeare J!

Malam ni aku merindui segala saat dan moment aku di zaman sekolah.di zaman kami selalu sama2,berbincang macam2..dari debat,bawak ke forum,bawak ke pertandingan NILAM, bawak ke perihal study dan berbangkit ke isu peribadi dan keluargadan..ape lagi ek sweet moment kami?banyak lagi..dan terkenang port kegemaran blakang blok,tempat di mana aku paling suka melepak sambil menulis puisi.wahahaha..very da jiwang!but, aku dah semakin hilang skills ni L!

Saat itu, apa yang paling banyak di benak hanyalah keluarga yang sangat dicintai sepenuh hati dan juga pelajaran yang bagi aku sesuatu yang paling menjadi keutamaan.tak ada istilah teman lelaki n apa-apa sahaja sebab masa itu dunia aku hanyalah AKU dan BUKU~yang paling penting,semangat untuk berlumba-lumba menjadi anak yang paling disayangi dan dibanggakan abah sebab cemerlang.masa itu,ein dah masuk MOZAC.angah pulak dari SAMURA masuk ke PASUM.dan along?masih lagi aku ingat aku menangis masa tinggalkan along dekat matrix UPM sebab aku sedih sangat nak bagi along masuk asrama L.dorang semua adalah inspirasi aku untuk berjaya J dan paling penting abah!walaupun aku rasa abah ni garang sangat tapi aku Nampak sekarang kalau abah tak garang entah-entah aku ni sekarang tak jadi orang dah,jadi kucing kot.hahaha..dan takkan ada lah seorang HERNI yang begini tanpa seorang ayah yang bernama AMINUDIN di sisinya..J

Perasaan datang silih berganti.suka.gembira.sakit.pedih.trauma..apa saja!ia bersilih ganti,seperti mana hadir dan perginya seseorang di dalam hidup.yang penting setiap perasaan dan setiap yang menyinggah di dalam hidup ini akan meninggalkan kisahnya yang tersendiri.tak kisahlah apa pun kisahnya, ia menjadikan kita insan yang lebih matang melihat kehidupan dan lebih dewasa dalam menginterpretasi sebuah perasaan.

Bak kata mak, aku sangat kuat dengan perasaan.hm..kuat dari segi apa ya?hanya mak yang tahu J!

Semakin usia meningkat naik,dari hari ke hari dan tahun berganti tahun,kadang-kadang aku terasa yang aku semakin hilang dibawa sesuatu.iya!pengalaman mengajar kita menghadapi banyak perkara dengan lebih baik.dan sebenarnya apa yangmenjadikan aku tersentuh malam ni bila az kata yang ~once you hide your feelings, you might be get used to it and you will be suffering of not-having- a- feeling-syndrome~

And actually I already suffering this syndrome but not too chronic yet!

Apa yang az kata membuatkan aku rasa macam tengah berputar-putar di atas sesuatu,macam jauh sangat berfikir dan menerbangkan diri ke tempat yang lain.dan selalu seperti biasa, kata-kata az n tirah~both of my dear ni selalu membuatkan aku jauh mengelamun.haruslah..they knew me for 10 years.mereka membesar bersama-sama aku,menangis dan ketawa,meraih kejayaan,berkongsi kegagalan dan memburu impian bersama-sama!

Walaupun lepas habis aje UPSR tuh,tirah membawa diri ke SHAM n az je yang stay kat TMS dengan aku..dan waktu tu aku merasakan sedikit kesedihan sebab tak dapat masuk boarding school,tapi masa tu aku sangat pasrah je.az sambung ke SMAP Labu.tapi kejap je,then dia balik TMS!heheh..dan di situlah kami bermula sebagai kawan sepasukan untuk aktiviti-aktiviti sekolahJ, sebab dulu az ada fadhi~tet.hahaha..

Lepas PMR, kami meraih kejayaan yang sama.tirah, aku dan az.tirah masuk SAINS Puteri Cyberjaya, dan az pulak dapat STAR.uhuk2..dan masa tu aku dah rasakan angin-angin kena tinggal sebab aku tak dapat offer memana pun!sedih sangat.

Dan az pilih untuk stay dekat TMS, dan aku ingat lagi masa dia nak bagitahu dia tak nak pergi STAR sangat kelakar ok J!

Lepas beberapa lama menanti,aku pun dapat tawaran sambung ke MRSM BP.masa itu aku rasa tak nak pergi sebab aku sangat sayang TMS ni.abah pujuk aku,tempat tu jauh!!walaupun aku ni suka sangat explore benda baru, tapi aku masa tuh dah berputus asa dengan apa-apa tawaran pun.kebetulan aku dapat tahu pasal tawaran tu masa aku baru balik dari competition drama~aku jadi tukang mekap.blueks.haha..lepas abah pujuk barulah aku pilih untuk pergi walaupun sebenarnya~aku sayang sangat TMS!!

Hari pendaftaran aku kat MRSM bertindih dengan kedatangan surat tawaran dari SBPI Jempol.again n again,sampai sekarang ada terselit rasa kesal jugak.kenapa surat tu sampai lambat?kenapa aku dah daftar baru aku dapat surat tawaran tuh L.tapi kadang-kadang ada sesetengah benda yang kita tak dapat nak lihat apa yang tersiratnya,yang pasti semua perkara berhikmah.mungkin sebab aku ke MRSM aku lebih berdikari dan lebih tabah menghadapi hidup sekarang.

Lepas SPM, sekali lagi kami meraih kejayaan jugak.yang pasti paling cemerlang az!aku dan atirah Alhamdulillah Cuma ada sedikit jugak kekesalan kat sini sebab aku nak sambung ke luar Negara,tapi..tak tercapai!.dan kemudian tirah sambung pengajian dekat matriks n9 az jugak!dan aku?ditawarkan ke matriks Melaka tapi akhirnya aku memilih utara sekali lagi..Pra Ijazah Undang-Undang UiTM Kedah.az masuk matriks kejap je and dia pilih nak sambung ke Maktab Perguruan dekat Kelantan tu.

Dan sekarang?aku kat sini~UiTM Shah Alam.tirah?dekat UMT dan az? Ops..otw ke INTEC!!

I want to let u know ok~

az n tirah, i really appreciate every single things that both of u do to me. Thanks for every single words when I was down, every single feeling of sadness that we share when I felt that this life is not fair to me. Thanks for all encouragement. Thanks for always beside me and guide me when I felt that I did not know which way I should follow. Thanks for your entire compliment and criticize. Thanks for being someone that never stab me back. Thanks for being someone that always be there for me. And even, time and space make us far..i won’t forget you because you always here, in my heart till my last breath..

(English merepek ape??)ahahha..

LAMA DAH NI...sekadar nak update....

17 Okt 2009

Praise To Allah...

After hearing the Azzan from the nearest Madrasah, i felt the calm that can suits me the best. Earlier today(Lemau), I was sooooo negative about life, as it even have a great impact to me all day long...But Having a friend that had cal it slowly to me, i soon realize that i was out of control.

Now I had regain myself back, TQ to a girl name Emi....TQ for being there when i need U....

I am now back to the mood that as normal as possble, and I hope that I can manage myself well until my lst paper for this sem....

Ell....i know that u didnt know that I have a blog now, but trust me k.....The boy is just being a boy, and he is sooooooo damn stupid for not seeing the pearl in front of his eyes....Just let him go k....

But never ever say that the fate that Allah had planned for U....It is hard to face the real fact of love.....Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit kata P.Ramlee....not Ramlee burger k

We need to move forward without having regrets upon our past....If we were keep on living on our shadow, we will always feel depress about urself......let it go, coz Allah knows the best for U....

Love is too much sacrifice at one part, but it can also be a stream of good memoirs to be remembered ntil the day we die....

Let us always remember that Allah will always be there for us.....He never forgets us, only we are forgetting Him.....

May Allah bless us all.....

Happy Maghrib n Yasinan....

Lemau....

Hari ni xtaw la knp dari ml tadi lagi aku rasa khilangan motivasi dalam diri sendiri.....Banyak gle keje yg menanti depan mata tapi aku amek kputusan utk tido jer malam tadi.

I thought by having a nice sleep last night will kills all sort of negative emotion within me, but somehow te same feelings are stil around me, up until this moning class of Mdm Jeba.

I want to excell in my studies, but i need to know who am i first in order to reach my goals....

Ya Allah....adakah ini petanda yg aku semakin jauh dariMu kerana kelalaian dan kealpaanku mengejar dunia???? Ke mana harus ku bawa diri jika aku berdosa padaMu Ya Allah....

Seringkali aku mlewatkan solatku demi menyiapkan apa yg perlu....

Seringkali aku menangguhkan ibadah kepada Mu dalam mengejar hiburan yg melalaikan....

Seringkali aku tlupa bahawa hidup di dunia in cuma satu sandiwara yg semetara...

Ampunkanlah diri hambaMu yg hina ini Ya Allah..Bantulah aku utk mencari nilai diriku yg sebenar,,,,

Permudahkanlah aku mhdapi kpelbagaian kerenah merentasi khidupan...

DariMu aku datang dan kepadaMu jualah tempat aku kembali.....

Amin.....-----

Nukilan Sebelum Peperiksaan Mandarin dan Listening 2
InTEC Libraray
1.10pm....

I'M NOT READY YET.......

BY TUAH CENDANA.....

I'm not ready yet.....
I'm not ready yet.....
I'm not ready yet.....
When I will be ready for this...

when all of our yesterday's had lighted fools....
to choose between the road not taken...
Do Tanggang's homecoming brings more harm then good???
Or will it just like a dead crow in the drain near the post office....

Will Lord of Flies will soon be gone
Nor will the Mango Season will come once more
But Eliza soons to meet her Higgins
Or Black Beauty will be gay or boy....

Times goes on in and out
waiting no tides, waiting no men
The memoir will always stay in my heart
But the truth wll remains in all that we are....

Love is Mutual

I keep on asking myself...why don't i jump into having someone that is very special in my life as most of my friends have their Bf n Gf....but why am i single???

Well....having a GF is somehow not the most important goals in my life, as i have other goals in life.Hmmm....love can be hurtful to us and others, even sometimes u might loose friends that is sooo near to u...

In this case, i would like to share to a friend of mine...Ell.....Let the one that u love comes to u in order to maintain the relationship with him or her. yes, we need to let go a few things. i know that it's hard to be done, but trust me, u dont want to mess up more in ur life.

Workloads seems to be endless at this moment...till we meet again...Adios...

Perasaan melepasi kesalahan

Hari ni adalah hari jadi seorang sahabat yg sgt baik dalam hidup saya.yg telah mengenal siapa Tuah Cendana sebelum dia menjadi seorg yg ada pd hari nini, during the world seems to be the most happiest place to stay forever. Biarlah kita kenali dirinya dgn Ell. Malangnya saya tiada di sisinya ketika dia sgt2 perlukan, n bcoz of that, she had almost losing one of the most important person in her life. Wouldnt it be nice if somehow that everything that we had indulged in a day and only the sweet memories remains.

Ell....i'm sorry that i cant be at ur side 24 hours a day, but trust me, my doa will always be with u.

may my first post in the blog will not be my last one, and hopefully i will have sufficient time to all of this task....